- Projects are stalling due to funds and time available
- With the warmer weather approaching, I tend to stay inside a lot more
- Researching mini projects at the moment, but not much to write about
- I've taken a vow not to mention "ideas" until I'm well into implementing
- Since I'm pregnant now (surprise) many of our plans are changing
Without going into all the details, life has basically been turned on it's head and often when that happens, I find it better to repose. I gather more information and meditate on it slowly. It's difficult to write about, because it's still so up in the air. How can you talk about stuff you're still mulling over and may not even happen?
It's quite possibly the pregnancy hormones talking, or the plain and simple fact I've evolved since starting this blog. I don't know how to write about who I'm becoming, or where we are heading. Life in so many ways, feels amazing. Yet dreams are having to change which is sad. But good. Just kind of sad too.
If I sound conflicted, it's because I'm going through the process of deciding what matters. That's not easy. With no deadline to meet either, it could take a while. I hope that makes sense?
Rather than continue the long run of silence, I thought to briefly outline our present reality. That's all I have to share, but thanks for taking the time to read.
Are you caught in a moment too?
Congratulations! Is your daughter excited?
ReplyDeleteWhen I had my first child it was all so easy and perfect that I didn't want to rock the boat with another but we had "accident" a couple of years later. I was very very sick and a bit disappointed at first, then she turned out to be a holy terror for the first 5 years or so but I don't regret it. She is now the greatest kid, my best buddy, right hand man - my rock.
Aww, so glad you two are close. Same thing here, sicker than my first pregnancy.
ReplyDeleteSarah was a little "concerned" (as she said) at first. She was afraid the new baby would "ruin her life", lol. I was down with that as it's natural she's had us to herself for the past nine years, now it's suddenly going to change.
But as I'm typing this, she's having fun pushing the thrifted pram we got recently, around the house. She's also started making images with four members of the family. I think she's coming to her own understanding of this strange new invader, and liking the thought more and more. :)
I think she'll love it, I was 7 when my little brother was born and I thought he was put on earth just for my benefit, a real live doll. I refused to go to school on the days the midwife came so that i could do the weighing and everything.
ReplyDeleteHope you feel better soon and can look forward to meeting your new family member.
xx
Oh how divine Chris! I am very happy for you.
ReplyDeleteI too am caught up in the moment.....finished cancer treatment but feel like I was hit by a truck....and all the rest....we earn our silence sometimes.
We have lots in common greenfumb, I was 9 when my little brother was born too. I couldn't wait to get home from school to make him giggle, lol.
ReplyDeleteOh Linda, I have to pop by your blog for a visit. Finishing your treatment (finally) is a big deal. Crumby not to feel the best though. You'd want to be feeling like walking on the moon after all that!
ReplyDeleteSometimes the best things to happen to us, don't always come with the reality of good health. Something to work towards though. :)
Chris, sorry I have not replied. I do feel that I will "get better" in time. I think I should of expected this-I am very toxic after all was said and done after all. Yes, its something to work towards for sure:)
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